no matter what ive tried in the past ive never been able to quiet the demons inside of me-the voices in my head and the darkness laying deep inside of me will never go away-but one thing ive found is that pain will at least quiet them for a little while-that is one of the reasons why i like to hurt myself so much-however just recently ive found a new hobbie, one that allows me to come in and beat on other people inside of a wrestling ring and get paid for it-so even if i loose my matches the pain inflicted will make it all worth while-